Breastfeeding

How can I write this without coming across as selfish, guilty, defensive, etc.....

I am in a really grumpy mood today and I just read an article that used "silly" excuses for reasons not to formula feed to make fun of the "silly" excuses women give for not breastfeeding.  I know they article was in jest, but being grumpy, it just made me feel worse.  I breastfed David for 10 weeks....10 very short weeks....and I had to stop.  No - I was not lazy.  No - I wasn't worried about how my body would look.  No - I wasn't worried about inconvenience or anything like that.  In fact, I did everything I could to keep breastfeeding, but was physically unable too.  I developed kidney stones and was on heavy duty medication and had to have surgery.  So, while my body was full of those drugs, I had to pump and dump my milk.  I chose to continue pumping so that when I was healthy again, I could breastfeed my baby.  But, pumping doesn't produce as much milk as true breast feeding does and by the time I was able to feed my baby again, my milk supply had dried up, no matter how much pumping I did.  I was devastated!  My mom had to pack up my pump and other breastfeeding supplies because I couldn't do it.  I sobbed each time I mixed a bottle of formula and fed it to my baby.  So, there truly are some of us that, for whatever reason, cannot breastfeed our children.  Those of you lucky enough to do so should enjoy that precious time don't act like you are better than the rest of us - because, by doing what was best for my child and not putting those medications into his body through my breast milk, he ended up on formula.  And, you know what, he is perfectly healthy, beautiful, and no worse for the wear!

So, if you can breast feed, DO IT!  But, if you can't, don't sweat it!  No matter what, you need to make the best choice for your baby!